Her name is Depression.

Merry meet again.


I'm about to explain why I haven't been around youtube, I got a depression and it's been killing my mind and body. Depression is a hell of a bitch, belive me...

It all started with the fact that I've felt tired all day, even when I woke up in the morning, after 10hours of quiet sleeping. That was strange, for me, because I used to feel so energetic and active to go to school and work, goin' out with friends and used to be some cheerful.
I was becoming hostil with everyone around me and withdrawing from everyone, friends and family, and whenever someone asked me if I was ok, I lied. I felt I didn't need anyone help and I rather sit in my bed and cry for no reason.

I had difficulty concentrating so I lost interest in school and everything, I've even stop painting and writting, I stop goin' to my driving lessons and goin' out with friends, even for a coffee in the bottom of the street. I've started to eat alot more than usual and specially sweets and chocolates, because they made me feel good and happy for a while, and when I couldn't get any I would feel agitated and I couldn't stay quiet.

I felt worthless and that everyone was my fault, I was a burden in everyone's life. I had no motivation to keep living nor to keep fighting.

I've started thinkin' about suicide.


This week I found out why I was feeling so fuckin' bad. Her name is Depression and I have to get rid her...

This is what happened to me, why I've been gone and so, why I have been so absent.
I'm better now tho I still feel the same way that I did in the beginning and I still think about end all but I can't. I can't because this is not the way I am, I know I'm strong and I'm a wonderful person, I just need help.


If you feel anything the way I did, seek medical help, please.



☽◯☾ Lady Crove